YOU

my brain  said ...hey u stop thinking about her...common today its u and me lets do something fun,lets forget her ..how about we go to the ice cream place we love ,,and i was like ya lets give it a try....but the moment i entered the place everything froze ,,memories started coming back i looked at the table we used to sit ,today someone else was sitting there ,,they seemed happy..which made me jealous obviously so to distract myself i opened my phone and there were all these texts from my friends asking me if i am OK , my finger texted "i am fine" but  my heart said i am broken.So i decided to take a smiling photo of myself and post it  so they wouldn't worry about me and also to be on the winning side of the competition to look more happy on the social media....  Now here is a thing about  a broken heart ,behind every smile there are tears,behind every laugh the sole is falling apart  and i think its the cruelest joke of the universe to meet the right person at the wrong time ,gosh if only i was ready for you ,to love you the way you did. my order was taking time so i moved by the window and it was drizzling outside made me think of the time you left , it rained for several days  as if the sky itself was sharing my grief,the grief which only heaved with every passing second and kills even to breath . i came here tonight to made peace with the fact that i could live without you , i could have fun even in your absence but i ended up realizing that i cant. On the contrary i realized there is always one person you love who becomes that definition,it usually happens retrospectively but it happens eventually .this is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people ,even if some of these qualities are self destructive and unreasonable .I came here so that i could hate you but there is no charm equal to the tenderness of your heart,so i am finally here in the most disgusting situation  ever ,and only you could help me elope

P.S- Slagha